About me
Rebecca chen
19 going on 20
21/06/90
Freelance Model
Dancer
His Sweetheart xoxo

If you wish to engage me for shoots or events,please contact me via email. beckiish@hotmail.com

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Why do i always get myself so in love with a guy that i lose myself .. ?I hate myself for loving him so much. Why am i feeling the same heartbreak i had 4 years ago when my first ex hurt me like fuck?Why history just have to repeat itself? I love him so generously and all i get from him is nothing but hurtful words or actions.

Yes, i don't deny that he has his good points too. But apparently.. in this case as from now..It seems like that person doesn't exist anymore, that guy that loved me almost unconditionally. Well, perhaps its true when people say Love is always passionate but the strong passion won't last for long and sooner or later, it will fade away.. I guess its like the fire burning.

The only thing he does best is make me cry. Cry and cry. Crying is my forte now.

I am not needy, i'm just another average girl that wants the basic needs from a Boyfriend.
Its not that i am demanding you to buy branded things, sending me home everyday,talking on the phone everyday,going out everyday etc.

hehe. so far it has been just shopping eating and slacking! cuz filming starts on monday. 0.0

LOL. we came so early is because we had to do measurements for costume fiitting. yuppp.

too lazy to upload pics here, for those that wanna see more can view them on my facebook ya? hehe, cebu really rocks becuz the things and food here are so cheap! :) Grinnnnns..

But on second thoughts,i think the security is kinda dangerous here.

heading out for lunch soon!! Heheheee.. Thai food !Lalalaa..

To phoenix - Thank you babe, for all your kind sweet words.. :D:D i just wanna let you know that you are a very strong girl. its good you don't give a fuck to those low-life fuckers out there that are just jealous of you. :) just keep smiling like you are always doing, cuz it certainly is working . heheeeee. You are amazing my magician babe. haha, have never get to watch your performance before though! :D Hope you do well and rock that freaking performance at the shopping mall .

ps you can always confide with me ..

Will put up more next time!:)

Had an extremely early shoot with Patrick . at 12am. Ended at 3.30am :)

Thank you Patrick,for those awesome shots, you are one of the few photographers that can make me look prettier than normal in pictures..! :D LOVE THEM.haha

HA.. kinda crazy eh..

After shoot,went for supper, got home around 4.30am.

Slept at 6am, woke up at 9.30am ,left home at 10am plus to meet Ronny to get clothes for shoot at Berjaya hotel..:D

Anyways..been having alot of thoughts about my future..Ugh.. :(

Should i request to go over to cebu for internship in July instead....?

Should i go over for internship or stay here and sign up for MDIS mass comm course..?

Should i work at Status production,and not go for internship and not study as well?

Should i go back to my family in January or after Cebu .. ?

Should i work at prudential again if i go cebu in July?

And what's gonna happen to "that's a star" if i go over to cebu for 4 months?

I just started dance rehearsals!! AHH...

All the freaking question marks.. Seriously sucks..!:((

Sigh.. it has only been 4 days without baby.And i miss him so dearly already.. :(

Worst of all,After he comes back on tues, i will only get to spend just one day with him on wed,and then thursday i will be off to cebu for 10 days..

I know i shouldnt complain cuz there are many couples out there that are surviving through long distance relationships.. and 4 months is seriously shicken feet to them.

But STILL!! argh!

Hope he is having fun at Goldcoast now..Love ya baby.

Muacks..!

Anyways.. Here are just some of the Pictures David Kow(Efficient right!) took during the shoot earlier in the day at emerald hill.Which technically,is my first time there.HA,Oh oh and did my First ever shoot in the rain!!Cool right?! hehehe, it was FUN!:D:D

More pictures @ www.beckiish21.multiply.com

光影

Through the rain..

AND this was taken after the dance Prac. HA.i didnt know Cloudie has a fetish for my foot. :S HA! Dance prac was funfun!Cola was such a hoottieee.

So, after the practice, Went shopping with Cloudie and i spent more than i thought i would!Shit!!Zzzzzzzz. But nevermind, there are really gorgeous and i MUST be their owner.

I bought 3 pair of heels and a sandal. Plus, 2 pair of hot pants. Just likethat! So quickly..!!

The shopaholic in me just CAN'T step into BUGIS. it's just dooms day. seriously.

:S Too many things, too little time. AND MONEY! hahaha!!

I have already bought 4 pairs of footwear and i totally still wanted to buy MORE! lucky Cloudie dear was there to CONTROL me.HAHAH!

and omg,i found the shop where they sell ALLLLLLL corsets.Freaking hot. damn...

:D:D

yeah... today at Union square was pretty happening towards the end.

Most of the overseas instructors that are performing and teaching tomorrow at Downtown east (SISF) were there..Pretty awesome.But didn't dance with them though, I WAS JUST TOO TIRED! and i was wearing my sandals. :( andand my back started to feel pain again, gotta take care of it,i don't want to go through another MRI shit and take like hundreds of pills. ugh. :X

Alrighteys, i gotta head to sleep now, it is freak-ing 2.30AM and i NEED to wake up tomorrow for yet another shoot.

Nighteys lovelies!

xoxo

What's dignity..?